Long time no blog...

Well hello there little bloggie how's things?

So yeah seems I haven't posted in a wee while... oops. Not a lot has been happening really apart from my exams being over and me being out most of the time!

I'll start with my music practical, it went quite well actually, surprisingly! I remembered all my words and managed most of the high notes in singing and only messed up minorly in the piano pieces so we're all good, no more syllabus to learn! YAY! Currently working on some Einaudi pieces! I have to say his music just makes me want to melt it is so beautiful. It's hard to see how one instrument can make such beautiful music but clearly it can! :) I'm so lucky to have had an amazing teacher for 11 years of my life and I can now go and do my own thing and know how to properly learn and play the piano, it's great :) I really want to be able to write my own piano pieces but I haven't thought I can but I might as well try and see how things go.. I might start writing one tonight, we'll see how that turns out!

So exams ended and I've been out of the house quite a lot actually just spending the nights with people who make me laugh and feel good and happy! I honestly have really amazing friends! I know I've said it before but I cannot describe how amazing they really are! :) It makes me a little bit sad that 2 of my best friends are leaving in September, it's not like I won't see them but I'll miss seeing them week in, week out and I'm going to steal them over their uni holidays! I'll meet a whole load of other people next year because my gap year has been sorted out now... YES! I'm way excited about it! Romania for 7 weeks! Then off to Monkstown :) Way way way way excited!

As much as home is good, I feel the need to move on. I was visiting school yesterday and I didn't feel like I belonged there anymore. It's the strangest feeling ever, I've been there 14 years of my life and I don't feel like I belong there anymore. I've accepted the fact that I'm growing up and bigger and better things are waiting for me. The next phase is starting and my personal growth is just beginning and I'm hoping I turn out okay. I want to be someone that people can run to when they feel sad or scared, I want to be the one telling them it's okay and it'll all turn out the way it's meant to. I like to be there for people and I guess that's why I don't want to do music technology anymore. I can't be dealing with an industry where the only people I really talk to are my bosses. I want to be involved with people, helping them in whatever they need help with or even just talking to kids who come to a youth club just to get away from home. I've been doing that, I've been running away from home by being out so often and so late. To be honest, running away from it, getting away doesn't help much because you always need to come back.

From a thoughtful me,

Charlotte :3

Home but not really...

So I've returned to my ''home.'' The reason for the inverted commas is the fact that I could call anywhere my home. I'm one of those people who just live in a place and call it home really! I don't tend to spend a lot of time in the house as I don't see the point in wasting time indoors by yourself, in case you can't tell I'm a bit of a people person. That doesn't mean I don't enjoy being by myself but I do like to have people around me.

McDonalds and Chinese food has become too familiar to me and I seriously need to get my act together with this whole eating thing because I go all day without food and then eat rubbish for dinner which is not good! I don't want to get flipping clogged arteries! Anyway. The gym is calling but I can't until like next Monday which sucks, I don't want to wear myself out before my dance shows! Yes plural, 3 in total. It's going to be so much fun but so so so sad at the same time as it's the last one ever for the whole grade 8 class :( Ballet has been a huge chunk of my life and developed so many skills in me! I going to miss the banter of dancing as well as the actual dancing, my class is amazing! :)

I've finished for summer now as well so that's pretty darn amazing, had my last exam today which was my music practical and it actually went pretty well, I'll be disappointed if the marks don't reflect how much work I put into it! Everything is ending but at the same time everything is starting and to be honest I think it's time to move on to bigger and better things, I've don a lot of growing up this year and part of that will be leaving school behind and as sad as it is to not see everyone everyday I'm going to meet so many more amazing people! Next year is now sorted and gap year is for sure now so YAY! I'm beyond excited for it and cannot wait to get started! Everything's falling into place now and the future excites me plus things are going pretty darn good at the minute too (apart from the occasional fall out with the parents).

Closing statement: People are cool.

Charlotte :3

Oft for the weekend!

So currently I'm not in my own house... And you're probably wondering why.

Well I would like to say I'm staying with my friend for the weekend because her parents are away but that is not the case. My dad and I had a pretty big fall out last night and I'm not going into details but it was bad. I was left to go up into my bedroom in tears because of what he said and I really can't stick it anymore so I needed to get out of the house. Luckily Belinda is and amazing person and was able to take me in as she is living in her granny's who is away traveling at the minute so I'm able to talk to her if I'm feeling down and we're able to have good sensible deep conversations about faith and stuff but we're also pretty silly sometimes which is fun :) I'm so grateful for a friend like Belinda.

Today we have been doing errands and eating McDonalds, then I went to the last kids club (sad!) and she went to a youth thing in her church. The last kids club was great! Got talking to some of the parents and the children were responding well to the activities we put on so overall it was a success!

Kids are a wonderful refreshment to us! They can come out with things that just spark your thoughts and make you think about how you view things. Very rarely is there a child that would be prejudice about a person who is a different race than them, they may ask why their skin is that colour but they wouldn't mean it in a nasty way which is refreshing! They also have a lot of good questions about faith that get you thinking and it's a good feeling to be able to tell a child how God gave you back your life or how He has enriched your life in some way! Kids are awesome!

I'm off to enjoy my water bottle and eat cookies! :3

Charlotte :3

Revision Break!

Oh my days, last paper exam tomorrow... Glorious!

So I'm just taking a short revision break as I cannot have my brain working for more than about 2 1/2 hours at a time so this is going to be part of my break! I've just done a health and social care paper and got 72.5% which is good considering I've done barely any revision on it at all and according to 2011's grade boundaries that counts as a B so I'm pretty happy with that but I'm convinced I need to get an A or A* in this module to get a B over all but we'll see how that turns out!

So while I'm on my break I'm having a cup of tea and a packet of malteasers and possibly going to watch an episode of big bang theory for a bit of a brain rest and watch them saying big words while laughing unconrollably at how much my brother looks like Sheldon Cooper! Really, look at the picture of my brother in one of my blog posts (can't remember which one it is) and then Google a wee picture of Sheldon from big bang and you'll pee yourself at how similar they are! haha!

Awesome, I'm going to watch big bang theory now!

Toodles!

Charlotte :3

P.S sorry for any spelling mistakes, my brain is mushy and this computer doesn't have any spell check!

Aw man, just melt!

Oh my days, this is gona be short because I'm currently melting over this wonderful music.

Ron Pope. My love for him has just grown so much more tonight! I've only recently started to listen to him again as I just have a whole load of his songs on my itunes but no actual album but I have to say this album Whatever It Takes is just FAB. Oh my gosh if you haven't listened, get yourself onto spotify and listen, any girl out there will melt at 'Our Song' and 'Wherever You Go' man this guy can SING! His lyrics will make any girl fall in love but in 'Wait for You' there's these lyrics:

"Sometimes I don't believe in anything
So many things I never knew
I may seem lost but know this I swear is true
I will wait for you"

Now you tell me that isn't totally like relevant to some peoples relationships these days! This is totally my hopeless romantic side coming out. Yes I love walks along the beach, sunrise, sunset, roses and cuddles on a cold night. To meet me you'd probably not think I'm a softie but really inside, I am. It's all a defense mechanism really, my wall! Everyone has one and it doesn't really matter because if someone is willing to persist with your 'wall' then they're worth being friends with! :) 

Aw Ron Pope you bring out the girlie girl in me!

Charlotte :3 

Oh hey there no sleep!

3:00am is my body actually kidding me?! It's seriously just messing up these days and I ain't too happy about it!

Anyways...

So this week I've been a bit of an animal murderer! :( First off I killed a daring bird, then without realizing until after I'd just squished it... I killed a frog, innocently hopping across the road! Silly frog! Then today I had to kill a spider. It was chasing me around the bathroom, not even joking! It was quite disgusting actually, let's just say there were spider juices every where. Not amused!

Update on my chest, um it's probably allergies but the dr isn't ruling out the possibility of asthma. Great! So they've given me allergy tablets and a blue inhaler which I had to use today :( The good thing is that it works like straight away and it feels good to be able to breathe! So that's what's happening there and now my mum is concerned that I might have something wrong with my thyroid because I have incredibly shaky hands but this is pretty much the only symptom I think so I'm not too worried! Mum's mega like I have to get you to the drs though so I'll go to make her happy! 

So today I woke up at 1:30pm due to this whole not sleeping thing and went out with my friend Jess at like 3:00pm for a wee catch up as we have not had beffer time in forever so it was much needed and was accompanied by Dominos pizza and a cuppa from McDonalds :D It was a good day and I was a bit late in for dinner which dad wasn't happy about but ohhh well! I have no idea how the heck I'm going to get up at flipping 8:15am tomorrow/today, like seriously what is my body up to?! Awk well, build a bridge Charlotte seriously.

Hope you can sleep better than I can!

Charlotte :3

Bored.com

So I'm in Bloomfield surgery right at this moment in time waiting (rather impatiently) for them to open the doors so I can get this chest thing sorted. I hope I don't get the same dr as last time because she'll think I'm a right hypo coming back like every month because I discover something else wrong with me. I mean it's never anything majorly bad I'm just ill all the time! This chest thing is really getting on my wick though, it's horrible not being able to breathe properly so I decided I would do something about it and go see the drs. This blog is currently keeping me from jumping in the wheely bin beside me and getting a fellow patient to push me about because I am simply that bored. Or I could just jump in and take a 10 minute nap until 8:30am when the surgery opens.
It's a good surgery like but a lot of people come to the open surgery which sorta makes it a bit of a long wait which sucks.
So here I am blogging outside a GP surgery. What has my life become?! Joking because I know that this is some people's lives, coming to drs visiting hospitals and I wouldn't wish that to be mine!

Peace out girl scout!

Charlotte :3

And then I killed a bird...

Well, this is going to be possibly one of the most action packed blogs. Or not because I probably won't write everything I intended to because as you've seen, I get distracted by random things that pop into my head. WAYflippingHEY.

So let's go with yesterday. I got up at 12:30 because I had a very late night the night before as you saw with the time I posted my blog at... oops. My parents have stopped asking me where I've been or how late I come in now which is all good! :) Finally, some independence. So I woke up and had made plans to go out with Leah and Jess for some girl times, get some lunch, do some general errands and go for a lovely wee walk

 

This is Orlock, where we went for our walk.. Lovely place!

Me being all instagramie and artistic hehe

So that's where we went and on the way there I broke my flipping wheel trim off!! I bumped into a curb quite roughly because a car couldn't stay on it's own side of the road and the wheel trim came partially off which was not a good event! So I realized this after our walk when I decided to check out the wheel and it was 1/2 hanging off, I tried to kick it back on but without success so I just ripped it off and put it in the boot :)

After our walk we had to do some errands and then I left Leah home, well... on this journey something else happened! I was driving along the big country road where there are lots of birds flying about like idiots and clearly have very daring personalities. One of them, in fact, flew right into my windscreen. Yes you read it right... into my flipping windscreen. I think I might have killed it but it's the bird's own fault for being so stupid and flying into a car windscreen probably trying to impress it's lover and boom it's dead. I can't help but think of the line from The Notebook (incredible movie), "Tell me I'm a bird!" Mate, you don't want to be a bird after my experience and this next line shouldn't have been written because of my traumatizing experience, "If you're a bird, I'm a bird." That's like saying, "If you're willing to fly into car, I'm willing to fly into a car." NO. You don't do that Noah! Rager over about the bird but it was a traumatizing experience... Just sayin'. 

A little while later Jess, my brother and I got some Chinese food for dinner which was glorious yes I can spell that word. Then Jess and I got all musical and recorded a flipping song!! YEAH BUDDY! Here's the link to my sound cloud if you wish to listen:
http://soundcloud.com/charlotte-charules-louise-mcveigh/i-wont-give-up

So that was fun and our friend Jay texted us both at the same time saying the same thing so we started being creepy and sending the exact same messages to her at the exact same time! Tehe we so funny ;) Then Jay came round to mine and we watched Saw 4. Kinda gross but I actually didn't have nightmares after it which was good :D But totally beyond gross! 

Yesterday was good :) And today I woke up at like 13:30 because I wanted a lot of sleep and have just been catching up on my tv shows and playing Skyrim totally amazing game. So here I am :)

I've been doing a lot of thinking today, looking at the past and now. I totally value my friends, more than any of them will ever know! I can't believe how much has changed in the past 9 months I sound like I've had a baby now... I haven't! I've come out of my shell a lot, got close to some really fab people and become closer to God while all this has been happening! I cannot wait till next year when it's going to change even more and have so much more packed into it! For now I'll live in the present trying to leave all the rubbish in the day it belongs to and try and keep what's important in my head and on the tip of my tongue. I feel I should apologize the way I've acted to some people, I get lost in the moment when I'm angry or frustrated and say things that are harsh or not pleasant, so to anyone who I've ever spoken bad to or about, I'm sorry. 

I'm not perfect and through this blog you've probably seen that. I have ups and downs but I'm determined to make it more ups than downs because who doesn't like to be positive right?! I want to also say thank-you to you! YES YOU! For reading this, looking into the parts of my life you probably wouldn't know about if it wasn't for this blog! One of my friends said it's like having a conversation with me and thinking about it, it's pretty one sided but if my (sometimes strange) daily life brings joy, entertainment or if you can relate to it that makes me happy :) THANKS GUYS :3

Good night!

Charlotte :3 

Just because it's 04:05

So apparently I'm a little nocturnal...

This whole business of staying out late is becoming a bit of a usual for me :) I quite like it actually but I near fell asleep at my friends house tonight haha! I think my parents would have killed me if I had of fallen asleep and not come home! Haha! Have to say I've had a good night all the same and I've mentioned several times on this blog how much I love my friends so you all should know by now!

So I've just been looking back at some photos from school and I got a little bit sad! I have so many lovely memories from Glenlola and it's basically been my life for the past 14 years! I know towards the end I was getting fed up and although I'm sad I feel it's time to move on to bigger and better things. School wouldn't have been as chilled if it wasn't for our amazing head of year, DMcB! He's amazing and was always there to talk to defo the best head of year ever!

This is short as I'm getting tired but be encouraged that I'm back to my usual self even if slightly nocturnal, hey I could be an owl if I wanted :D

Night!

Charlotte :3