Beware, deep blog ahead!
So I stumbled upon a wonderful poem that saddened my heart a little bit:
Cranky Old Man.....
What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!
It's amazing what we miss. We all look at people and judge them by appearance or by the way they act when we first meet them. First impressions are often wrong and if we don't give people the chance will we truly be able to say we like or dislike that person? I want to be able to give people the chance to get to know me and give myself the chance to get to know people. Look around at your friends and ask yourself, do you really know them? Is there something about them that tells you that maybe you need to look a little bit deeper and you've just taken for granted that they've told you everything that you need to know? I can see in some people that their soul has been hurt by something or someone and they just put up a facade of being happy, funny or just trying to act normal. There's always a chink in the chain at some point, it's just seeing it and reassuring someone you're always there for them and they can trust you and talk to you about anything. I'd like to think my close friends could come to me about anything, I'm quite a listener and if you need to just get something out of your system, I'm quite good at just being a shoulder to cry on and I hope my friends see that.
So often we take people or places for granted. For example, I've complained that Bangor can be crappy at times but really, it's a beautiful place to live. We're right beside the sea, can go walk along the coast at any time we like but just because there isn't much to do in the town center we think it's kinda rubbishy when in fact we just take our beautiful scenery for granted. I could stay up all night and just listen to the waves crash against the rocks and just for once, appreciate what I have right now. Sometimes things fall apart, things end and we don't want them to. I'm moving onto the next stage of my life at the minute and to be honest, it's scary. Something inside me is freaking out a little bit because I'm growing up and there's nothing I can do to stop it. Everything that has been so certain up to now has ended. You always think things will last forever, school for example, you can't wait for it to end and you never really believe it will but then it does and you're left thinking, wow... I'm not going back to school in September, I'm not going to see some people ever again and I the people I'm closest to are moving elsewhere, as am I. For 7 weeks in September I'll be in a completely different culture, Romania. While everyone else is in the UK I'm going to Eastern Europe, scary right? But exciting at the same time because I'm going to gain a whole new perspective on what I have and what is valuable to me. I'll come back and be in Monkstown which is about 40 minutes from Bangor which is good and I can't wait to get to work there too!
In church yesterday, our minister was preaching about being thankful. As I reflected on this I found I complain... a lot. And why should I because I live in the #7 richest country in the world! That's crazy! So many people have less than me and they don't complain because they value what they have more than I do. They have the bare essentials, sometimes not even, and can rejoice in that because they haven't been spoiled by adverts telling them they need to have the latest laptop, iphone, ipad or whatever else we 'need'. We're so materialistic and don't try and trick yourself by saying you're not because let's face it practically everyone in the UK is. Not necessarily our own personal fault but we can't completely blame advertisers for our own greed.
I challenge anyone (who has managed to get this far in the very long blog) to look into their lives and see the people, places and objects around them and not be grateful that they have family, a bed, a laptop or a place they know to be beautiful and can easily get to it. Just look into your life and be thankful for what you do have rather than looking and seeing what isn't there.
As difficult as it is to not want or long for something we don't have, think of something you do have.
Crappy job? At least you have one.
Old laptop? At least you have one.
Car that's falling apart? At least you have one.
Annoying family? At least you have one.
I think I've made my point here. I can learn from my own babbles too. My name's Charlotte McVeigh and I'm a typical Northern Irish complainer. I'm not just going to deal with it and accept it, I want to change it. I hope you do too.
Charlotte :3
Monday, 16 July 2012
Friday, 13 July 2012
Trending topics on twitter...
So I've had a bit of trouble thinking of what to blog about today as I have done absolutely nothing. Like a serious amount of nothingness. So I wanted to blog to fill my boredom until I felt sleepy enough to just go to sleep and wake up at a normal time, problem. Done nothing today to blog about. I have therefore consulted twitters trending thing to find something to talk about. Options are:
1. rockday (wtf?)
2. Harrison Ford is 70 (do I care?)
3. Today is national french fry day (possibility)
4. ccc (wtf?)
5. Cancelled webshows (boreddd)
6. Happy Friday 13th (could do that)
7. Black hole sun (don't know what that's about)
8. Missão ImpossÃvel (wtf?)
9... Oh no it's just changed. GREAT.
Okay... decided I'm going to do the superstition of Friday the 13th.
This is an ''unlucky'' day according to some people where bad stuff can happen. Now I don't get this as bad stuff can happen on any day of the year YET people have decided that more bad stuff happens on days where it is indeed a Friday and the day of the month is the 13th. Scary. So I've gone onto Wikipedia to do some research on the topic and apparently there are a few theories. Numero uno por favor!
There you have it. A very concise version of the theories of Friday the 13th. Hope you enjoyed my ramble and this has taken up about 30 minutes of my time and I'm going to go have a bath now to waste 30 more and then go to bed.
Happy Friday 13th everyone ;)
Charlotte :3
1. rockday (wtf?)
2. Harrison Ford is 70 (do I care?)
3. Today is national french fry day (possibility)
4. ccc (wtf?)
5. Cancelled webshows (boreddd)
6. Happy Friday 13th (could do that)
7. Black hole sun (don't know what that's about)
8. Missão ImpossÃvel (wtf?)
9... Oh no it's just changed. GREAT.
Okay... decided I'm going to do the superstition of Friday the 13th.
This is an ''unlucky'' day according to some people where bad stuff can happen. Now I don't get this as bad stuff can happen on any day of the year YET people have decided that more bad stuff happens on days where it is indeed a Friday and the day of the month is the 13th. Scary. So I've gone onto Wikipedia to do some research on the topic and apparently there are a few theories. Numero uno por favor!
- In numerology the number 12 represents completeness. This has come about as 12 hours on the clock, 12 months in a year, 12 Gods of Olympus, 12 tribes of Israel, 12 Apostles of Jesus, 12 signs of Zodiac etc. etc. This would then mean that the number 13 would be considered irregular. Some say this is derived from the Last Supper where there were 13 people sat at the table or a Norse myth that having 13 people eating at the table would result in one of the diners dying.
- Friday has been considered an unlucky day to make journeys or start new projects by ''other professions.'' It also says that Friday has been an unlucky day since the 14th century's ''The Canterbury Tales.'' I have no idea what that is!
- An author unnamed (handy) says that it derived from a novel called ''Friday the Thirteenth'' by Thomas W. Lawson. Where stuff goes down on that day basically.
- Dan Brown's book ''The Da Vinvi Code'' popularized the connection between The Knights Templar and the Friday the 13th superstition.
There you have it. A very concise version of the theories of Friday the 13th. Hope you enjoyed my ramble and this has taken up about 30 minutes of my time and I'm going to go have a bath now to waste 30 more and then go to bed.
Happy Friday 13th everyone ;)
Charlotte :3
Thursday, 12 July 2012
The 12th... dun dun dunn!
Oh hey there!
So today it is the 12th July... big day in Northern Ireland as it is indeed a public holiday and celebrates something quite... well... I don't know how to describe it but I shall indeed explain the situation.
Basically there was this battle called, battle of the Boyne in which King William of Orange won victory over James II. Now, as King William of Orange was Protestant and James II was Catholic, the 12th is a Protestant holiday. Some Protestants take it seriously and go to bonfires and the parades which is all good fun so long as there isn't any rioting or fighting which there often is due to alcohol and differences of opinion. I personally don't really go to any of the parades or bonfires, I don't really know why I've only seen the marching bands once in my life and it's alright like but I duno me and standing up for a while don't really go well together! I've never been to a bonfire either, must go to one some day! Would definitely be up for the experience :)
So that's the 12th in a very, very, small, tiny, nutshell! I'm one of those people who are in the middle. All for people wanting to celebrate it, all for people not wanting to celebrate it! I can see both sides. I guess it was never a big thing in my family as no one is in the Orange Order or marches in the bands so I really have no reason to go apart for enjoyment or celebration but sometimes things get out of hand and I'd prefer to stay out of the trouble than be right in the middle of something I don't want to be involved in. Hope I haven't caused any controversy with bringing up this topic! Northern Ireland is a place where, sometimes, it matters if you're Protestant or Catholic. I believe in equal opportunities and don't see why religion should separate us! :)
Hope you're enjoying your 12th what ever you may be doing :)
Charlotte :3
So today it is the 12th July... big day in Northern Ireland as it is indeed a public holiday and celebrates something quite... well... I don't know how to describe it but I shall indeed explain the situation.
Basically there was this battle called, battle of the Boyne in which King William of Orange won victory over James II. Now, as King William of Orange was Protestant and James II was Catholic, the 12th is a Protestant holiday. Some Protestants take it seriously and go to bonfires and the parades which is all good fun so long as there isn't any rioting or fighting which there often is due to alcohol and differences of opinion. I personally don't really go to any of the parades or bonfires, I don't really know why I've only seen the marching bands once in my life and it's alright like but I duno me and standing up for a while don't really go well together! I've never been to a bonfire either, must go to one some day! Would definitely be up for the experience :)
So that's the 12th in a very, very, small, tiny, nutshell! I'm one of those people who are in the middle. All for people wanting to celebrate it, all for people not wanting to celebrate it! I can see both sides. I guess it was never a big thing in my family as no one is in the Orange Order or marches in the bands so I really have no reason to go apart for enjoyment or celebration but sometimes things get out of hand and I'd prefer to stay out of the trouble than be right in the middle of something I don't want to be involved in. Hope I haven't caused any controversy with bringing up this topic! Northern Ireland is a place where, sometimes, it matters if you're Protestant or Catholic. I believe in equal opportunities and don't see why religion should separate us! :)
Hope you're enjoying your 12th what ever you may be doing :)
Charlotte :3
Sunday, 8 July 2012
It's been a good day :)
So today's been very, very good :)
It started with going to church which was an unusual experience as it was a Methodist service (I'm Church of Ireland... don't judge!) and I didn't know 1/2 of the songs or this thing called the Benediction at the end which is like the Grace in COI. So that was good and the guys (xplore Peter and Stephen) got a wee present at the start of the service from the church to say thanks for everything. They've been such great guys the whole year, always working hard but also providing us with lots of banter and weirdness :) If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be doing Xplore next year or have come so far in my faith this past 9 months. I guess they've given me all aspects of friendship, always been there for me and given me sound advice. For that I'll be forever thankful.
So church was over and we went to the Rutledge's for lunch which is always good and we had some good food (when I say good... I mean KFC!) then some dessert of malteser cheesecake and oh my days it was amazing! So we then watched the tennis for a bit then Jeff and I headed round to the church to set up and sort some logistics out of what people were going to sit on and where, how to make it as informal and comfortable as possible! We then went our separate ways for dinner and came back for a bit more practice and set up then we were ready to just go for it and give it our all! :) It went really well and I actually enjoyed playing in front of people without being too nervous! The setting was so casual and informal that I think it relaxed me a lot and I would definitely be able to do another one after doing that one!
After the gig we all chilled for a bit and one of Jeff's friends hung about and played the guitar and jammed! It was awesome! We then played football for a while and who knew that my ninja skills would come in handy for football?! Haha! Over all it was just a really good night and I think praying before we went out to play helped a lot and people seemed to enjoy the night and we definitely did. (or I did LOL) One bad part was saying good-bye to Stephen, even though he didn't wait around, Peter and Neville. I know I'll see them all again because Stephen is helping with the Holiday Bible Club in my church and then Neville is head of Xplore and Peter is doing Xplore next year again so it's not a proper good-bye but I'll definitely miss having them around all the time and in church as well!
Last thought: God is good, He provides us with talents that bring people closer and make us feel alive and in touch with ourselves again.
Much, much, crazy, hyper love!
Charlotte :3
It started with going to church which was an unusual experience as it was a Methodist service (I'm Church of Ireland... don't judge!) and I didn't know 1/2 of the songs or this thing called the Benediction at the end which is like the Grace in COI. So that was good and the guys (xplore Peter and Stephen) got a wee present at the start of the service from the church to say thanks for everything. They've been such great guys the whole year, always working hard but also providing us with lots of banter and weirdness :) If it wasn't for them I wouldn't be doing Xplore next year or have come so far in my faith this past 9 months. I guess they've given me all aspects of friendship, always been there for me and given me sound advice. For that I'll be forever thankful.
So church was over and we went to the Rutledge's for lunch which is always good and we had some good food (when I say good... I mean KFC!) then some dessert of malteser cheesecake and oh my days it was amazing! So we then watched the tennis for a bit then Jeff and I headed round to the church to set up and sort some logistics out of what people were going to sit on and where, how to make it as informal and comfortable as possible! We then went our separate ways for dinner and came back for a bit more practice and set up then we were ready to just go for it and give it our all! :) It went really well and I actually enjoyed playing in front of people without being too nervous! The setting was so casual and informal that I think it relaxed me a lot and I would definitely be able to do another one after doing that one!
After the gig we all chilled for a bit and one of Jeff's friends hung about and played the guitar and jammed! It was awesome! We then played football for a while and who knew that my ninja skills would come in handy for football?! Haha! Over all it was just a really good night and I think praying before we went out to play helped a lot and people seemed to enjoy the night and we definitely did. (or I did LOL) One bad part was saying good-bye to Stephen, even though he didn't wait around, Peter and Neville. I know I'll see them all again because Stephen is helping with the Holiday Bible Club in my church and then Neville is head of Xplore and Peter is doing Xplore next year again so it's not a proper good-bye but I'll definitely miss having them around all the time and in church as well!
Last thought: God is good, He provides us with talents that bring people closer and make us feel alive and in touch with ourselves again.
Much, much, crazy, hyper love!
Charlotte :3
Thursday, 5 July 2012
Up and down...
Okay... prepare yourself for a bit of a ramble of a blog!
My life is being consumed by music at the minute which is great as I do indeed need something to be doing rather than just sitting about the house doing absolutely nothing and wasting my time so having something to work towards is great. I'm playing with 2 friends at a gig on Saturday so I've been practicing quite considerably at that and to be honest I love it! I could easily go about doing gigs but I don't think it's meant to be. I need to see how my nerves go on Saturday because I'm usually quite nervous playing in front of people, even my friends and the fact I've been able to play in front of Jeff and Stephen is quite an achievement. I think I know why though, I can hide behind them on my wee piano while they bust out some fabulous music on the guitar/vocals and the drum, which is in fact a cool box!
Last night, Jeff came over to my house so we could do some hard work and work out the chords in the songs as was hadn't actually already done that which was silly but oh well I can cope! Then we went to McDonalds and then back to his house for some tv! McDonalds is a nice reward for working hard :)
Here we are at today then. At about 2:25pm I rolled up to the church in my wee ka to find everyone was waiting for me.. oops! I had a slight mishap on the way though as I forgot to bring the sheet of paper that has ALL the chords on it... Good one Charlotte! So I got there and we went in and ran into another problem, there was something wrong with Jeff's guitar! When plugging it into the sound system the guitar wasn't picking up some of the notes and only came out with a horrible muffling sound! So we went without the sound system and had a really good practice! Stephen was on the drum box thing and it sounds good! We have another practice tomorrow like early, early, early in the morning! Can't wait, should be fun! :)
So I came home 11 minutes late tonight and my mum took a physco as did I when she she started on me. I just let out everything I'd been feeling over the past few weeks and literally yelled it at her! It felt good to get it out but now I'm wrecked, emotionally and physically. All the crying has worn me out but it was good to get it out. I've never had such a bad fight with anyone before it was awful, I hate arguing with my mum but sometimes the anger gets the best of me and I just let loose when I know I should just leave it, I don't. I've just had a bath and I'm going to try to sleep in about 30 minutes, so a cup of tea and possibly a magnum is on the cards as I need chocolate after tonight.
It's chill time,
Charlotte :3
My life is being consumed by music at the minute which is great as I do indeed need something to be doing rather than just sitting about the house doing absolutely nothing and wasting my time so having something to work towards is great. I'm playing with 2 friends at a gig on Saturday so I've been practicing quite considerably at that and to be honest I love it! I could easily go about doing gigs but I don't think it's meant to be. I need to see how my nerves go on Saturday because I'm usually quite nervous playing in front of people, even my friends and the fact I've been able to play in front of Jeff and Stephen is quite an achievement. I think I know why though, I can hide behind them on my wee piano while they bust out some fabulous music on the guitar/vocals and the drum, which is in fact a cool box!
Last night, Jeff came over to my house so we could do some hard work and work out the chords in the songs as was hadn't actually already done that which was silly but oh well I can cope! Then we went to McDonalds and then back to his house for some tv! McDonalds is a nice reward for working hard :)
Here we are at today then. At about 2:25pm I rolled up to the church in my wee ka to find everyone was waiting for me.. oops! I had a slight mishap on the way though as I forgot to bring the sheet of paper that has ALL the chords on it... Good one Charlotte! So I got there and we went in and ran into another problem, there was something wrong with Jeff's guitar! When plugging it into the sound system the guitar wasn't picking up some of the notes and only came out with a horrible muffling sound! So we went without the sound system and had a really good practice! Stephen was on the drum box thing and it sounds good! We have another practice tomorrow like early, early, early in the morning! Can't wait, should be fun! :)
So I came home 11 minutes late tonight and my mum took a physco as did I when she she started on me. I just let out everything I'd been feeling over the past few weeks and literally yelled it at her! It felt good to get it out but now I'm wrecked, emotionally and physically. All the crying has worn me out but it was good to get it out. I've never had such a bad fight with anyone before it was awful, I hate arguing with my mum but sometimes the anger gets the best of me and I just let loose when I know I should just leave it, I don't. I've just had a bath and I'm going to try to sleep in about 30 minutes, so a cup of tea and possibly a magnum is on the cards as I need chocolate after tonight.
It's chill time,
Charlotte :3
Tuesday, 26 June 2012
Long time no blog...
Well hello there little bloggie how's things?
So yeah seems I haven't posted in a wee while... oops. Not a lot has been happening really apart from my exams being over and me being out most of the time!
I'll start with my music practical, it went quite well actually, surprisingly! I remembered all my words and managed most of the high notes in singing and only messed up minorly in the piano pieces so we're all good, no more syllabus to learn! YAY! Currently working on some Einaudi pieces! I have to say his music just makes me want to melt it is so beautiful. It's hard to see how one instrument can make such beautiful music but clearly it can! :) I'm so lucky to have had an amazing teacher for 11 years of my life and I can now go and do my own thing and know how to properly learn and play the piano, it's great :) I really want to be able to write my own piano pieces but I haven't thought I can but I might as well try and see how things go.. I might start writing one tonight, we'll see how that turns out!
So exams ended and I've been out of the house quite a lot actually just spending the nights with people who make me laugh and feel good and happy! I honestly have really amazing friends! I know I've said it before but I cannot describe how amazing they really are! :) It makes me a little bit sad that 2 of my best friends are leaving in September, it's not like I won't see them but I'll miss seeing them week in, week out and I'm going to steal them over their uni holidays! I'll meet a whole load of other people next year because my gap year has been sorted out now... YES! I'm way excited about it! Romania for 7 weeks! Then off to Monkstown :) Way way way way excited!
As much as home is good, I feel the need to move on. I was visiting school yesterday and I didn't feel like I belonged there anymore. It's the strangest feeling ever, I've been there 14 years of my life and I don't feel like I belong there anymore. I've accepted the fact that I'm growing up and bigger and better things are waiting for me. The next phase is starting and my personal growth is just beginning and I'm hoping I turn out okay. I want to be someone that people can run to when they feel sad or scared, I want to be the one telling them it's okay and it'll all turn out the way it's meant to. I like to be there for people and I guess that's why I don't want to do music technology anymore. I can't be dealing with an industry where the only people I really talk to are my bosses. I want to be involved with people, helping them in whatever they need help with or even just talking to kids who come to a youth club just to get away from home. I've been doing that, I've been running away from home by being out so often and so late. To be honest, running away from it, getting away doesn't help much because you always need to come back.
From a thoughtful me,
Charlotte :3
So yeah seems I haven't posted in a wee while... oops. Not a lot has been happening really apart from my exams being over and me being out most of the time!
I'll start with my music practical, it went quite well actually, surprisingly! I remembered all my words and managed most of the high notes in singing and only messed up minorly in the piano pieces so we're all good, no more syllabus to learn! YAY! Currently working on some Einaudi pieces! I have to say his music just makes me want to melt it is so beautiful. It's hard to see how one instrument can make such beautiful music but clearly it can! :) I'm so lucky to have had an amazing teacher for 11 years of my life and I can now go and do my own thing and know how to properly learn and play the piano, it's great :) I really want to be able to write my own piano pieces but I haven't thought I can but I might as well try and see how things go.. I might start writing one tonight, we'll see how that turns out!
So exams ended and I've been out of the house quite a lot actually just spending the nights with people who make me laugh and feel good and happy! I honestly have really amazing friends! I know I've said it before but I cannot describe how amazing they really are! :) It makes me a little bit sad that 2 of my best friends are leaving in September, it's not like I won't see them but I'll miss seeing them week in, week out and I'm going to steal them over their uni holidays! I'll meet a whole load of other people next year because my gap year has been sorted out now... YES! I'm way excited about it! Romania for 7 weeks! Then off to Monkstown :) Way way way way excited!
As much as home is good, I feel the need to move on. I was visiting school yesterday and I didn't feel like I belonged there anymore. It's the strangest feeling ever, I've been there 14 years of my life and I don't feel like I belong there anymore. I've accepted the fact that I'm growing up and bigger and better things are waiting for me. The next phase is starting and my personal growth is just beginning and I'm hoping I turn out okay. I want to be someone that people can run to when they feel sad or scared, I want to be the one telling them it's okay and it'll all turn out the way it's meant to. I like to be there for people and I guess that's why I don't want to do music technology anymore. I can't be dealing with an industry where the only people I really talk to are my bosses. I want to be involved with people, helping them in whatever they need help with or even just talking to kids who come to a youth club just to get away from home. I've been doing that, I've been running away from home by being out so often and so late. To be honest, running away from it, getting away doesn't help much because you always need to come back.
From a thoughtful me,
Charlotte :3
Tuesday, 19 June 2012
Home but not really...
So I've returned to my ''home.'' The reason for the inverted commas is the fact that I could call anywhere my home. I'm one of those people who just live in a place and call it home really! I don't tend to spend a lot of time in the house as I don't see the point in wasting time indoors by yourself, in case you can't tell I'm a bit of a people person. That doesn't mean I don't enjoy being by myself but I do like to have people around me.
McDonalds and Chinese food has become too familiar to me and I seriously need to get my act together with this whole eating thing because I go all day without food and then eat rubbish for dinner which is not good! I don't want to get flipping clogged arteries! Anyway. The gym is calling but I can't until like next Monday which sucks, I don't want to wear myself out before my dance shows! Yes plural, 3 in total. It's going to be so much fun but so so so sad at the same time as it's the last one ever for the whole grade 8 class :( Ballet has been a huge chunk of my life and developed so many skills in me! I going to miss the banter of dancing as well as the actual dancing, my class is amazing! :)
I've finished for summer now as well so that's pretty darn amazing, had my last exam today which was my music practical and it actually went pretty well, I'll be disappointed if the marks don't reflect how much work I put into it! Everything is ending but at the same time everything is starting and to be honest I think it's time to move on to bigger and better things, I've don a lot of growing up this year and part of that will be leaving school behind and as sad as it is to not see everyone everyday I'm going to meet so many more amazing people! Next year is now sorted and gap year is for sure now so YAY! I'm beyond excited for it and cannot wait to get started! Everything's falling into place now and the future excites me plus things are going pretty darn good at the minute too (apart from the occasional fall out with the parents).
Closing statement: People are cool.
Charlotte :3
McDonalds and Chinese food has become too familiar to me and I seriously need to get my act together with this whole eating thing because I go all day without food and then eat rubbish for dinner which is not good! I don't want to get flipping clogged arteries! Anyway. The gym is calling but I can't until like next Monday which sucks, I don't want to wear myself out before my dance shows! Yes plural, 3 in total. It's going to be so much fun but so so so sad at the same time as it's the last one ever for the whole grade 8 class :( Ballet has been a huge chunk of my life and developed so many skills in me! I going to miss the banter of dancing as well as the actual dancing, my class is amazing! :)
I've finished for summer now as well so that's pretty darn amazing, had my last exam today which was my music practical and it actually went pretty well, I'll be disappointed if the marks don't reflect how much work I put into it! Everything is ending but at the same time everything is starting and to be honest I think it's time to move on to bigger and better things, I've don a lot of growing up this year and part of that will be leaving school behind and as sad as it is to not see everyone everyday I'm going to meet so many more amazing people! Next year is now sorted and gap year is for sure now so YAY! I'm beyond excited for it and cannot wait to get started! Everything's falling into place now and the future excites me plus things are going pretty darn good at the minute too (apart from the occasional fall out with the parents).
Closing statement: People are cool.
Charlotte :3
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